12/04/2010

angels

1st of all b4 I write this dedication 2 my Greatest Teacher,
      
     I want 2 dedicate this 2 ALL of U, from me. ;O*
Notice that I write this in a color that has no emotion.  I would like some of u 2 understand, that sometimes I write as a reflection of the scales I see unbalanced.  Understand that Iam blessed, blessed enough 2 view things from different angles.  So when I talk, understand that it's venting my view's.  As far as what u think.... well as U can see I obviously don't care.  I think its funny how most that have an opinion, don't say nothing positive.  Like lets turn around the whole I am Dead Campaign.  1st off why are we not sad of losing those life's. Period.Com!!!  Oh that's right, cos technology has no emotions. So yes I'm behind it 4 different reasons. I really think that instead of the people pitching in money, it should come from oo I don't know CEO's.   Rumor has it Bill Gates is donating money when he dies.... Okay y don't he start now?  4give me, but why in the world aren't all Record Exec, Owners, Managers, ummm the owners of who those people work 4 throwing down serious cash????  Why are they depending on real people? Y can't the industry executives step up, n throw sum of the cash they helped make ur ass??? A million dollars should of been raised a long time ago, in fact they shoulda never been "dead." 

     Ohh sorry but u all just don't even think b4 u go and assume.  So hello asses lets also address Mrs. Beatz, 4give me again, but u all shut me up 4 awhile.  1st off Keys nor Beatz are 2 be judged by u.  In fact in all relationships it takes work.  Work from both sides, take a look back and check the scales.  See when one side of the scale goes up, another goes down.  Some people are not made for each other.  Because of lust, comfort or liquor, sometimes we get caught up.  Then out of obligation, comfort, or what ever, u keep going round n round.  Some of us start young getting in2 relationships, while most of u don't even know u.  Trying hard 2 fill a void, or just addicted 2 ur vise.  I really see no wrong in admitting that u found love, and instead of being miserable with another... some actually own up and make things right.  That's the bottom line make things right!!!!!  Wait, Pause... Make things RIGHT!!!!!  Ponder that deep, cos that's a hail Mary throw.  People need 2 stop looking at other people, and make things right in there own life. Period.Com

     Oh n I'm going 2 address something else.  People become disconnected from there emotions, because of all the pain they have cried.  I heard about the letter I wrote Angel, n how it wasn't emotional enuff.   U want emotions watch a chick flick.  See Angel is the only 1 I was talking 2, rep'n 4.  And well, u all killed my life line 2 the world when she got murdered.  Y in the hell would I want 2 sit here, and share any joy she brought me?  U all deaded me along with her, so fuck you... I ride all day 4 my bitch me n her kno our truth... oh and it don't include U.  Instead of money, material things, n lust, u all should find true unconditional love.  That my friends comes from warm people.  So understand that's my bitch, and she was done wrong but I've cried so much I have no more.  I told her were only toasting from now on, n I'm gonna follow thru.  Period.Com

    Okay now I got all that out.. let me say Standing O.... Job well done class!!!! Kudos.  I loved it all.  It was very, very, very, overwhelming.  I had 2 figure out how 2 dumb it down..... LOL  So I got mad at the "fans" lol thanks 4 feeding me, may GOD BLESS U!!!!!!  U all went above n beyond.. I'm truly air bound.  LOL  Standing O!!!! Thank U ALL Hip Hop, Thank U.  2 many names so if ur following raise ur glass.... 

    I'd like 2 make a toast 2 all who "followed."  May life bring us Love, Life and Laughter!!!  May we all be blessed, 2 unlock the desires of our hearts!!!!  From the North, South, West and East... everybody cause world peace.  Mwah  ;O*

    
       Okay GT 5 ready? LOL Here goes nothing.......

     The sound of the music was over whelming, all I heard was white noise.  The reflections from the diamonds hitting the light, I went blind.  The unity from the colors became so light, some how I never knew this flight.  The GT5 was so high, damn these are unknown heights. 
    As I looked behind my ROC glasses, I could feel the breeze from the East.  The salt air smelt like blue berries, and the dolphins popped out to the West.  We were headed North, so I went down South.  I had 2 Giggle.....  

        I had so many butterflies the grin was, ear 2 ear.  Damn the beats were soothing, and the words.  Even my choir had 2 sing.  They started with the horns, then added the piano.  The drums were low and the trumpets banged.  Damn I told myself I wouldn't get emotional... then tears filled my eyes.  The peace it brought was so Zen, man.  I don't know how to explain the warmth and protection it gave.  Don't get mad, but I couldn't take in all the words. So forgive me for no names.  Everyone wanted to say so much, it turned 2 white noise.  LOL It was cute.  The brochure I had 2 read...LOL Damn I had 2 go zone 4 awhile. 

   The robe was nice n soft as the slippers read ROC... it felt good 2 b off her feet.  Plus when ur warm, u just wanna snuggle more.  The bowls and cherry Pepsi's, ha its been a long time since she bit her lip.  Smile ear 2 ear, and that sparkle glittered from her eye.  She seemed giddy from the high.  That's when I really wanted 2 say hi.  She was so in2 her paper damn, I was jerk'n from withdrawals. LOL  She didn't care, he had her on a mission... damn it turned me on even more.  She became detached, had me like baby when u coming back?  She just kept going her way.  I didn't like it, started messing off.  She seen, n warned me it was gonna catch up 2 me.  Now this is me paying the price.... damn she ain't nothing nice.  But I admired her commitment.    

    M.I.A. was the highway I was on, shit this stuff just bumped.  "Tell the world 2 CALL back, I'm busy making up my own."  Uhh shit motherfucker GD..... I started making my own words up... ha ha
I felt like I was doing a number from Grease. LOL Kiss me and Ill kiss u back... Mwah.  Grins.  Hip Hop ain't sound this nice since its 1st Golden Era.... Lets go back 2 back, like Kobe n Shaq. Fly high like Jordan and conquer like Jackson.  Be Royalty like Prince, damn I was so proud of this team!!!    Damn GT how can I get u 2 feel the love it self?  So as u read this letter, I hope u see urself!!!!!  Ur the G.O.A.T., our GT5 keeps life a float.  U made things right for so many people, and I want 2 Thank U.  I could give u my heart with all this love in it.... but personally we both know we not down 4 all that dovey shit, so here's sum daps kid.  Ahhhh SIKE... Jus Joshin 
LOL take 22  ummm okay
    Hip Hop would never be as far as its come, with out the seeds you took time 2 plant, nurture, water, and maintain to take care of.  You by far are an excellent father... 2 be.  GRINS u already adopted so many, who wouldn't think u'd b a great dad?  I want you to enjoy the fruits from ur hard earned labor.  As u toast 2day, raise it high and as those emotions fill ur glass, know this is going 2 be the proudest PASS.  Grins  Hows it feel Big Daddy?  Let it sink in and take over, u might need a lil time 2 adjust...... but please let it grow on U.  LOL I promise these M7's r ready 2 fly.  We r all on deck, and know everyone is down to rep!!!!  

     I hope u have the Happiest Birthday of your life, because job was well done!!!!  Thanks GT5, you gave life 2 Hip Hop and helped rebirth its New Golden Era... ha ha Here we go LOL,  hope 2 always make u proud.                    


     From every ounce of me I hope u see the broken hearted girl, u birthed 2 a lovely lady.  I hope u see the Graduate, u made from the knowledge of ur school.  I hope pleasure comes ur way when they announce my name, but most of all know I'm here 2 stay!!!! Ha ha Ur lessons have been dealt out, and blueprints were made.  History will once again be made!!!!!  XXX ;O*  2 the ROC!!!