angels

Morning baby, u lookin hungry hows French Toast with powdered sugar?  U got a lil tipsy last night come here, u 4got my kiss goodnight.  U looked good in ur 3 piece surprised it stood on.  Did u 4get that fast, here let me remind u.

     We met outside quarter to 12, as I grab'd ur hand we walked inside.  Headed sr8 to the Jay Z room, 2nte ur the VIP.   Suprise!!!!!!!     As OVO, ur Mama, and YM was stand'n at the door.  Birdman brought Wayne thru, u all shared a moment.  Mr. & Mrs.'s Carter were standing next 2 Timbo and the crew he brought thru.  Loso escorted Mrs. Mary, while Dream, Jamie and Ne yo, were all standing next 2 their ladies.  Beatz & Keys, was sitting next 2 the turn table.  As Kanye, Jeezy and Jada, were stand'n tall with the G.O.O.D fellas.  Luda, Nelly and Mr. Smith all got on stage and performed a show.  Thats when the party turned crunk.  Uncle Russ and The Rev, came thru with a hug.  While the Dr, Em and 50, brought u over the detox present.   Ce Ce, Nikki, and Trina, brought the heat with the dresses.  The rest of the guest were already dancing and mingling with others.  Looked like the video Big Pimp'n.....

    We made our way up 2 the bar, as lights, money and dro was being blown every where.  The cake was white and gold colored.  With the 24 all in gold, sit'n on top like a crown.  It was displayed by the fountain of Ace, as the food was laid across another table.  Everybody who was Somebody was bring'n in this celebration with us.  Bedz was play'n ur top 1 million, this was about ur dance fever.  All the guest's was enjoy'n themselves, with nothing but good company in this crowd.  Was like the DJ had a spell on us, the way we all got down.  Bottles were pop'n, good energy was flowing... Kinda looked like a rap video.  As u drank and ate, u did nothing but dance ur night away.  U moved 2 fast, had 2 have Derrick start flash'n.  Then the moment came when u said "babe, I'm tired."   4am u was ready 2 turn in....  We said goodbye and thank'd everybody, u weren't standing 2 sr8.  As we walked 2 the Phantom, so glad we knew better then 2 drive here.  U gave me a hug and kissed me, said "baby, u love me?"  I pushed u in the car, said "driver hurry please."  

      We got home and soon as we walked in, u picked me up and rushed me to bed.  Laid me down and started whispering in my ear.  U undressed everything told me 2 show my Bday Suit, then put x and o's all over my body.  U was so in the moment, all I could do was peep u.  Never seen that gleam or that look in ur eye.  Was almost like a boy with his new toy.  I let u do what u wanted, cos it was all about u... never once surprised me, that all u wanted was 2 lay naked, holding me.  It's been awhile and I know it's something ur lackin.  I let u hold me, kiss me, cress and conform 2 me.  Whatever makes u happy baby, let me please u daddy.  The grip got tighter and the ears got kissed on.... U was so in the moment, u had me gone.  We closed our eyes and drifted 2 club bedz.

                                           

                                        

angels

Happy Bday Love, Follow the trail til u find me!!!

This might take a week!!!

 Make A Wish!!!!!!!

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  Surprise baby!!!!!
2day is the start of ur golden year, tell me how u feel?
Is there a wish I could fulfill??? 
Anything u want babe, but understand we playing my game.
I got plans 4 us, so please get ready and come hop away with me.

     Damn baby, u got ready fast and smell so good, I think ur giving me wood!!!! LOL LOL  G22 is waiting come go with me.  I'm loving the view baby and so glad ur chill'n with ur lady! 

   We touched down in Oakland about 1:03pm, driver took us sr8 2 the stadium.  U with ur jeans and white sneeks, umm daddy but u looking like my treat.  I see u keep peep'n me in my white jeans & Raiderette shirt.  Lets go 2 this game 1st.  As we take our seats @ the half yard line, Denver was look'n blue.  Raiders came out rep'n so hard, they were 21 up in the 1st half.  As we stay'd seated 4 the intermission, John Legend was killing it.  The stadium screen read:  Happy Birthday!!!   I'm glad 2 be a part of ur Golden Year!!! Mwah, I Luv U Baby!!!  XXX ;O*

     As I got the biggest smile and excited hug, u gave me a kiss that got a standing o vay!!!!  Ur face turned a lil red, but u didn't care.  LOL  as u kept hold of me.  As Lauryn Hill closed out the set, the game was bout 2 come back on.  Raiders took care of business as they was stomping on Denver, with no regrets.   As 4th quarter was in its last 2 minutes, Denver trailed by more then 10.  Final score Denver 17, Raiders 36.... I went crazy and my baby said um hum Lets go I'm ready.....

     



     As we got back 2 G22 I had the driver decorate while we were @ the game.  We walked in 2 a table with white cloth and candles every where.  Rose petals were all over the floor, as the chef brought out Grilled lemon and lime Salmon.  With some Chicken Alfredo Pasta and Garlic Bread, we took our seats.  Eat our treats and then I brought out a, Resses Peanut Butter Cake.  U made ur wish when u blew out the 24 on the cake. U was so cute, cos u feed me ur piece bit by bit.  As we made our way 2 the sex room in the back.  As we walked in there was a clear glass with poles on the other side.  I said baby lay on the bed, I got a treat.  Turned on the radio, as Tank was blast'n threw the speakers.  The lights went dim and 3 dancers came down from the poles.  As u took a deeper look u found Sasha, J-Lo, and Ce Ce, all looking like the Glad video.  Ur private flash dancers, cos I know u like 2 play.  As they was my back round dancers, I was crawlin like a tiger towards u.  Ur Ego was a rising, I was cum'n 4 those Goodies!!!!  U entered Wet had u obey'n like a pet.  Had ur body rising oopp, there just went ur head.  U was going crazy had u sr8 hazy!!!!!  Ur body went numb from all the sensations, u was tell'n me 2 stop...  Only in ur dreams!!!!! I had u fly'n so high, all u could do was grab me.  I got u BABY, promise not 2 let u fall.  Remember u with me!!!!!  Thats when u loosened up and started working me daddy.  U started nibbl'n on the tip, dove so deep made me sweat.  The higher we got the harder Ego stood.  He made sure he was rep'n his hood.  We made beautiful music b4, but its time 4 the sickest remixes the worlds ever hood!!!  Polish this diamond, so she can make u shine in the brightest way.  Baby I'm urs let me grant ur other golden wishes......... We got all day, its both our days off, gonna make u wish u had the year off.  As ur body stayed in a trance I lit up a blunt, and got us more lifted.  U got crazy funny stared making me giggle, the way u was talkin 2 me.  As we lay'd there enjoy'n the moment, u was play'n with my hair say'n never leave me again.  I said baby we let the past burn, we was meant 2 last.  We good ur my only desire I want 2 please.  As u got all giddy leaned over and kissed me. Thanks my beautiful lady, thank you.  I gave u an Eskimo kiss and then top'd it with a french kiss.  We lay'd side by side as u cuddled me.  

angels

Always n 4ever is what we agreed upon.
U n me, 2gether we
Became 1. This was like a dream,
Reality wanted 2 keep us from. 
Eternally grateful the lord was on our side.
You n me, will always be. 

I know cos I see u, when I look @ me.
Baby ur the only 1, who holds my skeleton 
key.  I'm ready 2 be unlocked 4 life - Still committed on becoming ur wife!!!!

I Love You Baby, and that much will never be a maybe!
                                  Mwah XXX ;O*

    

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Love u baby!!!!! But I still got u 4 life, lol lol  Always n 4ever!!!!!


   
                                Sweet Dreams Light Beam,  Mwah  XXX ;O*  
                                                           Ur Angel

angels

I haven't done 1 of these in a minute but my heart was calling and I had 2 sing it.

                                                 4gotten 

I musta fell asleep one day, musta ran away and never said goodbye.  See I came back 2 a home that  became a house.  Never knew such pain, never knew such misery.  Looked in the eyes of my family, and me I could not see.  I tried 2 ask when it got this way... no response.  I yelled how'd u lose sight of me... still nothing.  I never knew such selfishness, hate, lack of faith.  Never knew there was never no love.  I cried, I wept, wondered where all my believers went.  No answer.  I went 2 god, he said child ur not the 1 whose wrong.  I still couldn't understand, I wanted 2 be part of my fam.  Nope 2 them I was a bother and just part of a problem.  I went 2 god once more... y oh y would u close ur door?  He said child ur still not wrong.  Then sent me along my way.  I told my G11 take me 2 marz so I feel no more pain.  Told Luda, can u come drink with a sister?  As he brought the M&Ms, with the glass of conjure.  Told me A we gonna get sr8, pop in this tape.  As we started roc'n 2, take this world and drop it on ur fuck'n head.  Wayne n Em was making marz feel like home.  Leo, Luda and I started talking when times were different and people once believed.  Told Luda, damn went off 2 college so my mama would never have 2 work again.  Remind me when did my day come and I past????  Cos people still living like I was the one who passed.  Luda said yea, tell me are u heaven sent or hell bent?  Had 2 look at him and ask myself, u kno I get that a lot lately.... but sir let's turn it around whose the one thats really in hell?  Right then he laughed, I said Luda lets talk 2 the rest of the 4gotten and play a game.  Kinda like the movie trading places.  See u have doubts on who can be saved, so point em out and my K9 and me will go fly these skies.  He didn't just point them out, he gave me a list that covered the world.  Said oh u have 3 years, still want this bet????   SHM  told him damn Adam always told me 2 keep my mouth shut smh damn insert foot again, but never once went back on my word.  So saving became part of this lil red ridding hood.  We finished our glasses of Conjure and he took me back 2 earth.  Told me u have fallen angels, just ask and they'll help u.  Damn this was gonna be a tuff assignment, didn't even know where 2 start @.  Seemed complete strangers believed more then family, so I went 2 all my 2nd families 1st.  A year gone, where do I go 2 now?  I asked the lord can I get a voice, The Boss who never left me, came 2 sound.  I ate the pieces and went in 2 save my family... dang one more year.  Looked up k where 2 now.  The Boss and Luda was so impressed with my progress, they gave me all their friends.  Shit that 1 was harder then it sounds, cos in the mean while had 2 convince them what about my moms and brother.  They gave me help with that 1, til I started seeing truth of their evil.  Started getting deeper with roots and man was this hard 2 up root.  Had it comin from people they trusted, people who said they loved them.  Its funny how when an outsider see's things that are negative.... they become the bad kid.  HUMMMM  while I can only show them so much and when u hang with people who have no faith or fail 2 believe.... while u also lose UR luck.  I guess a lot of us like 2 dismiss the fact that were always warned.  R gut feeling is more sensitive 4 a reason and shows u the unknown.  See not 2 bash on any sign, but I have yet 2 see a Gemini b true.  Ur always gonna deal with there twins, and while I've grew up with a few and been reintroduced 2 more then a hand ful... let me tell u.  I have yet 2 see 1 be true.  Ur always gonna deal with the 2 side twins remember.  The lack of manners wow no thank yous or I missed u.  They always see things as half empty, want people 2 feel sorry.  Plus I haven't met a female gem that is true 2 their word or  independent.  Yea they r gold diggers and will leave u when ur chips r down.  Now if u a gem and this aint u, then brush this off.  But if u getting upset its probably cos ur lazy ass is outta shape.  See I've seen true ladies bust there ass and take care of home, kids and MAN.  Then I look at some who work when they want, have the nerve 2 complain when he gets home, not spend QT with the kids, plus never cook dinner or say thank you, or ask how his day went.  But sr8 oh me this me that me me me me ...... damn 4 real good men deserve so much better.  I keep telling my niece u will never be a girl, U will be a real woman like ur aunty.  Ohhh I just went off 4give me.  Now where was I????    Guess the moral of the story is people what ever u do, never, never, never teach ur children 2 not believe.  Let them believe in it all.... mostly  GOD, ANGELS, and anything their lil hearts desire.  Cos it's a sad day when an Angel comes ur way, and ur so filled with negative, 2 feel there wing pick u up and take u away back 2 faith.  Not only do u make them cry, but when u do realize u had an Angel by ur side or in ur home.......  Ur gonna be the one who never stops feeling the pain.  So 4 ur sake I hope ur good, and when god grants u all ur wishes, I hope u repent right then.  I hope u never lose faith or stop believing cos Angels could be ur last hope.  After that we hand u 2 the Luda and hope u don't get eaten 4 suppa.  Now I know that was a lil scattered, but it was meant 4 the 1 true soul 2 understand.  

             U now been touched by an ANGEL!!!!!!
  

angels

So I had 2 do this, 4 my girl Trish and of course my baby!!!!


It was March 10, 1995.  Trish, Kupkee, Christina her 2 sisters and me.  Usher, Aaliyah came 2 do this show in Denver.  As we was standing @ what now is the Wells Fargo building, (GRINS) waiting 4 the doors 2 open so we can see the concert.  2 people behind us asked these kids if they wanted 2 buy back stage passes, they didn't have the money.  I turned around and said how much? $50, ask me where I got the money, but I pulled it out and sure enuff got 2 walk right in.  I was where the stage was at just waiting 4 somebody... this female in a cut off shirt and black pants came over.  As I shook her hand softest I ever touched, I asked 4 an autograph.  Mind u how I had a marker and pad I will never know.  But people when some things are meant, damn everything falls in2 place.  Anyhow she asked 4 my name and signed the paper, walked off with her girl.  Sweetest women even talked real softly.  As she was so kind 2 sign another 4 my friends sister, usher came out in his silver puffy jacket.... Now people I was crazy for this man he came out with his mom and couple dudes, wearing his head phones and singing 2 his song.  I froze up and just went in ahhhh mode.  He was so cute man he had me shook out my boots.  LOL  I asked him 4 a graph but he said after the show.  He posed and let me take pics of him behind the stage, he was wearing the old Nugget jersey.  Man I couldn't tell you what happened 2 that roll....  Anyhow Aaliyah came out in her yellow fireman suit.  They both tore the roof down, as it came 2 the end I followed Usher 2 the limo, still never got my graph tho...  But in 2007 got a pic and graph with the man. So that never stopped me from getting 1...LOL  Anyhow I was blessed 2 not only meet a beautiful woman, but a great performer.  She came 2 Denver 1 more time and I seen her with Timbo, Missy, Ginuwine (b4 they were really known), Case, MJB, Keith Sweat, All members of N.E oh and here's 1 for u when he was Bobby Wilson LOL LOL  can u name that group cos I'm staring at that autograph 2....LOL  LOL  I've seen a lot of shows, Im just glad that I was blessed 2 see more then 1 of Aaliyah's.  I realize now theres a lot of people in the game, who can't say that and that's a shame.  But here's a tip 2 the young, always remember GRACE!!!!!!!!!   

           Urs truly, 
           ANGEL

 

angels

Wrote Feb. 17, 1998
Revised Oct. 19, 2010



       I was on the phone with u 4 a quick minute.  When I turned around and there u were, lay'n right next 2 me in bed.  4 a second I thought my eyes were deceiving me, play'n tricks with me.  I thought this has 2 be just a dream, but when ur hand touched my thigh and went 2 my stream.... I felt ur finger canoe in my cream.  U said lets take a trip away from reality, come go with me on this ride.  I aboard ur flight as u take me away with ur height.    
      Damn if this was wrong it felt so right.  Daddy U were hypnotizing me, while playing in between my legs.  With every stroke u were letting it be known, u were mine.  Gave up the 9s 2 5s cos u were determined 2 make me feel ur ride.  As I rolled over expecting u 2 disappear, u started nibbling on my ear.  Ohh u started working ur way down my spine, teasing my back but please'n is what u never lacked.  Kissing every part including my girl hood.  U got the freak 2 cum out of me, I started getting kinky told u daddy spank me.  
      U paused 4 a second and asked what u got ur self in 2, but then started roll playing.  U knew this was gonna be something u'd never regret.  I laid u down and started play'n around.  I started with ur dick, licked it up n down, back up once more back down.  This time I did a zig zag motion, going up down and round n round.  Cress'n ur ego as I sucked on ur ball- ezo's. Damn baby ur body was jerking from my massage's.  As I took him up, old faith-ful was full and ready 2 erupt, so I guzzled and swallowed like a big gulp.  Tasted just like a Hi C Orange.... damn baby next time can I get cherry? 
      As I worked up ur stomach, licking ur crease's I slowly got 2 ur pecks.  As I swirled them and pulled them, ur body started coming up with them.  I pushed u down with the moans and sounds.  Daddy, was ready 2 explode again.  As u started making me feel that head.  The board started shaking, felt like a quake was banging.  U grabb'd my body and got on top of me.  Went in n out, harder n deeper damn baby could u feel my heat'r?  Right then ur meter read done and the fare had expired.... can I get the re-run?

LOL LOL Sorry Baby lost track had 2 end this story...LOL Sweet Dreams My Light Beam. Mwah Thanks 4 everything.  XXX ;O*

angels

Wrote Feb. 14, 1992

         If I told u once, I told u a million times.  If I showed u what u meant, u should know my actions were never bent!  If just 4 once, I happened 2 push u a side, then u should know loves not on my mind.  Baby ur always in my heart and I pray we never part.  U should know u mean a lot 2 me, but 4 u, you act as if u don't know.  Is that y u show me doubts?  U should know I love u so, and baby never want 2 let u go. 

And if u didn't know, well now u know.... 


      This musta been made 4 only u, LOL XXX ;O*  

angels

Wrote Dec. 27, 1997
Revised Oct. 18, 2010



           I started thinking of you 2day, this time I was in the kitchen and u came home from a hard's day work!  You walked in the door and told me u were ready 4 more.  Lay'd my body down cos 2day we were going rounds.  Placed me on the table, as my body became able.  Had me open inside making me cream all over my thighs.  Damn u were working me so good, never thought u would.  Your tongue explored my world and 4 a moment in time, you had everything on pause.  Without any cause besides u pleasing me, u began to get in places deep inside of me. 
      Opened me up with only ur key, the way u had me cum'n.   Started 4 filling my fantasy's as my mind felt it was on Xtacey.  My sense's went numb, so I got drifted away that day.  Damn you open me up every which way.  Had me bending over backwards, scream'n faster daddy faster... You road me like a horse on a fucked up course, chasing that rabbit 2 see if u could catch it.    
      You nibbled my nipples til I couldn't say no more, damn daddy gave me fev o.  As you blew my mind and made my kitty arrive, made me feel simply amazing.  All this time and I don't even ask how u stay pleasing me.  I guess that's the reason I love 2 love u baby!!!!!!!!! 

                Mwah always n 4ever  XXX  ;O*  

angels

JORDAN BABY!!!!!!!

Just Like JORDAN!!!

Luv U Aunty!!!!!!

23 Baby!!!!!!!

Don't Test Me!!!!!

Me n My Luv Bug!!!!

Soon I'll Learn My Diamond Sign!!!!

Iam Lady Lucky!!!

ROC Check!!!

I Wish Upon A Star!!!!!

Closer 2 My Dreams!!!

Baptized in the ROC!!!

UHHH NA NA NA NA!!!

I Will Not LOSE!!!!!!

Twinkle Twinkle Lil Star....

ROCA BYE BABY!!!!!!

LAMB Not LAME!!!!

                                                    No More Aunty, No More!!!!

angels

  So after this really there should be no questions. 
 Kinda like Lisa with Prince  " I was dreaming when I wrote this, 4give me if it.... I 4got the rest... Here's my homework teacher.

                                               Time 4 School Young One's

Ring... Ring...

1-900-Hustler, American Women talking.

Oh yea can I get a beach chair and some blue magic?

It's obvious ain't no nigga alone in this world, living it up.

Yea, my love is gone on that thriller and blackout ride.  I can't get wit dat cos I ain't heard of that.  Excuse me miss, but do you think I can ask you a million and one questions?
 Honey ain't I a billi?  Tell me your 99 problems.

     Okay analyze this. The best thing 4 da fam, is 4 me 2 change the game and change clothes.  I already know 2 many hoes and I don't want 2 be alone no more.  Back then it was fine to 7 minute free style 4 my niggaz, but I have 2 change up.  I'm coming of age where all I need, all of my days is the allure that my sisters and bitches will always be my sunshine.  See I've been all around the world and all about my benjamins.  This American boy always catches myself American Dreaming about mi amor.  I wanna call her and say I miss you and I just wanna love u.  As I'm looking at my S. Dots and no other hoe.  I feel like I lost one and losing my foundation.  Don't you know everythings a go and I'm feeling you in stereo.  Call it a fiesta or celebration your getting the best of me.  Just stop your cashmere thoughts, and bring your body in my reality.  I can't stop and won't stop hustlin but if you give it 2 me, I promise 2 never cheat on you.  Check it out, when I thought love and life was going right, you said make a girl feel free let's fuck all night.  Love is love, but love is gone and I need ur lolli pop 2 be a girls best friend. Damn,  I love when you reassure me my diamond is 4ever, lets hit these sheets 2nte.  Can't hide from luv dead or alive, so we might as well make dead presidents together.  Do you wanna ride and get your mind right mami?  We can be the new 03 Bonnie n Clyde us 2 as one. If we go crazy in love there will be no love lost.  Oh my god do my many styles kill them all in your past?  Keep it real, I come from the ROC army and if you give me the green light, I'll give you the hypnotic.  Girls, Girls, Girls were a thing of my past. I told them to get out and get off my dick.  I'm not fronting no more, I wanna give you this good thing but gotta know, do you like it, do you want it?  We can go from Marcy to Hollywood cos ur my kinda girl.  My 1st song had everybody screaming jigga that nigga.  While I was telling only you, I don't want to be alone.  So justify my thug til kingdom come.  Your the only 1993 freestyle saying hey papi.  Hola Hovito, Holla Holla, Hovi baby I did it my way.  That's why my HP stays busy.  So sing that hova song, and put your arms up baby.  

     Hello Brooklyn, could you help me wipe the dirt off your shoulder so I can rip your face off again?  I'm the dope man cos I know I'll be always on time with the shit I'm delivering.  When I meet the parents, I'm gonna give them the blue print 1, 2, and 3.  So lets get Brooklyn high and say bye bye to all that brake up mess, lets move on 2 the next. We off that, already wife'd that, where u at?  Come on baby, call me your Lucifer.  Don't let me die big pimpin with out my big momma thang, by my side.  A week ago, this seemed like a dream.  Shit comin from where I'm from this feels like a corporate takeover...ha come and get me.  You told me its on Izzo count it off, its that simple.  Can't knock my hustle and 4 sure can't play me.  Can I get open shorty?  Its alright, It's hot and It's like that!!!  Ain't no playa back in the day, have anything on me.  I came back from France warning ya' all 2 beware of the boys.  I only play with big chips and black republicans. They blow the whistle on a ballad for a fallen soldier of 9/11.  Blunts and Armadle is a thing of the past!  Since we grown Brooklyn's Finest, like 2 bump, bump, bump and give crew love on a daily.  We can dig a hole, friend or foe and show you da graveyard. 

     Flip flop rock sandals for my thugs, so they can get this money 2.  Get your money right and realize that gangsta shit is wack.  Especially when all you fallin on is far from the green.  Are you feeling the flow of Dec. 4, the R.O.C. also known as the prelude of S.Carter?  You gave me Deja Vu, when I read your letter, dear summer.  I just had 2 do it again 4 team ROC.  Started going thru my memories when Jaz-Ho was jacking Jayz 4 beats.  Thats when I had a moment of clarity and knew money aint a thing.  I knew I had 2 master this paper chase, and treat you like the only customer on the rock.  I loved when you would say pass the rock.  Say Im cocky but I know the game iz minez. So when I finally bring my key, just know the city is mine also.  

     When you told me 2 breathe easy anytime I break up with any1.  Best advice you ever gave.  You said we all relate cos when we break up 2 make up with our true ladies, we sometimes need to suck in our pride and tell em lets do it again.  Buy her sum diamonds from Sierra Leone, and go crazy with the encore of your event horizon.  By early this morning people were saying can I live to get by. While me and the heart of the city, was in Hollywood getting higher.  Hell yea is all she screams, as she freestyles here we go, bitches get off my shit b4 you get throwed.  Calling my name, "I'm addicted to the game" is the song she sings.  As she says "I heard it all b4", my Hawaiian Sophie murda, murda me in the sheets.  She say who u wit, as Im in between her hips.  Tells me all those other dudes are imaginary players and history.  Then gives me the wet as she gives it 2 me.  As we ride, I say where have u been, shit Ive been wishing on a star 4 your love.  Umm young girl I really like you.  You must love me the way you rock my world, oh dont ever stop giving me WW111.  Naked we eat lobster n shrimp as we smoke the la la la, my pyt queen bitch says "I love the dough.  Nigga please, I ain't ur other hoes, I will never change. As long as you never let me down, I won't stop my storm. Cos the streets is talking, and baby they still got love for you.  So cum give me that young, gifted and black thang.  Oh, warm it up jay, while u upgrade ego in me n play.  Oh daddy whatchu want, as u watch me wake up Mr. VIP."  I reply "oh sweet pie welcome to New York City, now do like a good girl gone bad and get under the covers with me.  I wanna see those bee stings bounce like balls.  Baby have the best of both worlds cos I know thats how you like it. What more can I say?"

      The single life had me sittin sideways act'n so ghetto.  I was parking lot pimpin the way I made money, cash, hoes, raw and uncut.  Think it's a game shit we had 22 twos, 30 something, and 44 fours, all part of the snoopy track.  I would leave them 8 miles and running after the pre game.  I always pray, lord never take me alive I promise I'll get my mind right and leave these whores alone.  But the jay z freestyle would make pussy rock steady and while they would pop 4 the roc hourly.  Pretty girls would come out and say show me what you got.  I'd have to ask for ID and of course say "Show me what you got."  2 the fellas I would holla "is that yo bitch? Cos she's coming home with me and Im gonna put it on her, trust me she's gonna get gutted." 

    Guess whos back the playa from the streets.  PSA, I mean 4 ya all who are a lil late.  The public service announcement is, theres been a murder consider this is your murdergram.  It ain't personal, my party people want the party life back..... So its murda these d'evils, and all these one minute man.  Say hello to the ROC boys, who are part of the ROC La Familia.  Give them the ROC Fam freestyle and show them how you became Roc-A-Fella Billionaires.  Ur gonna need 2 seriously check yourself into rehab and leave the hard knock life 4 sho.  Come 1, come all get blessed with the knowledge from the H.O.V.A.  Put down the guns and roses, stay alive for awhile.  Cos well some people hate, soon you'll understand how we make more then the song cry.  We teach you how to stick to the script, and we so good we do it with no hook!  We don't worry about the points of authority, we have our reservoir dogs wearing reebok in those cities.  We all ride or die 4 our road dawgs, learn the history.  As the real niggas put it in the air, we turn the lights off and light up our regrets.  U should hand it down for the 20 bag shorty, lets go shake ya body.  Show and prove to me that the return of the ruler's back!!!  We about to takeover this life forever, so when you feel the pressure; squeeze it and pump it up shit blow this mother fucker up.  Oct. 30, 2006 ROC made the decision, it was bout time 2 make the watcher 2.  Some how some way, when trouble comes your way, stand up, shake it off and get yourself an umbrella.  U don't know, that's how the man tries 2 get the young g's guilty until proven innocent!!!  So many ways 2 get jacked 4 free, so watch ya click and know ROC is the threat.  We bring the fear 2 ya, so please in my life time do not bother me.  So now you know where I'm from and what the game made of me, I ask whoo kid tell me what's in a name?  HA, Sincerely Yours, Mr. Carter.                                   

 

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This is 2 my ladies, B help with this one.... Me, Myself and I is all I have in the end.... we remember the song ladies?  I do more then ever right now.  See I'm gonna get a few things off my chest cos frankly I'm tired of being treated like I'm nobody.  God please 4give me but I need 2 vent, and I already told u, ur lil angel is threw.  It's amazing how you think some1 is true or shit that ur family might actually love you.  Starting 2 see ain't none of it tru.  Being the oldest and growing up in a Latina family while for some strange reason the boys are always catered 2.  They say you shall honor ur mother and father but when ur family treats you like an outcast and a burden y bother?  I had it out with my mom 2day, see since she lost her house it's kinda funny how she never had room for my stuff in storage.  It's funny how her and my brother r best friends and not worried where I've been laying my head.  It's funny how Im supposed 2 just be there yet they wish I was never here.  I remember numerous times my mom saying 2 not only me but my bff's moms and sisters, that she wish she never had me.  I remember her picking water over me, when step pops thought it would be cool 2 try and show me porno's while touching himself  well gramma n her were at work.  Yet months wondering what was wrong with me and finally telling school, she took his side went and moved her n my brother 2 greely.  Didn't care that I stayed with gramma or the shit I was going threw.  Thanks god 4 seeing me threw and letting nothing really bad happen 2 me.  It's funny how she wish she never had me, yet had it not been 4 me who woulda raised her son?  Helped her threw every trail she's gone threw, shit been the only 1 she could cry 2????  Lord Im done, I did what u asked and now I'm just turning mad.  I'm gonna post this one project that u asked, but god I need u 2 follow thru and get me outta here cos T.I. don't live in this city.  Been awhile since I've been IDK living 4 me.  Dude I thought was true, he starting 2 seem like the rest and while that chapters about 2 be thru.  4 real lord I need something cos my niece is the only one who makes me smile, I really don't know what you want me 2 do.  I'm losing my cool.  I thought dude was true lord or woulda saved more so I could be ghost and not have to feel this pain no more.  Its so normal 2 cry Im starting 2 lose focus of my worth.  I thought some1 was holding me down damn I shoulda stood my feet on solid ground.  Lord I really really need answers now.  Don't wanna spend money on some1 else's gps, just in case I need 2 jet.  Im done fighting lord, thought I was listening and following you but damn now it seems Ive been lead a stray.  I'm done being a burden lord please please say I never have 2 cry again. Im done hurting and arguing and not smiling 4give me but I want 2 start making me happy again.  I've gone far 2 long with no vaca and without a fucking touch from another body, lord I'm at my prime and theres not a fucking body who wont fuck this body.  I know I'm getting personal and really need 2 just stfu and do the post u told me 2 do and suck everything up like I normally do, but lord 4 real Im threw.  Whats the use being true when aint nobody else following thru, do u 4get I'm only human 2.  This shit hurts and I'm ready 2 call it a rap.  Im living below my means, everybody thinks I'm fucking crazy Im done lord wtf more do u want me 2 give?  Maybe this time people will actually miss me cos with no phone cant nobody reach me.  Shit at least I kno where ever I end up, you got me. 

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Another call, this time it was  from the G.O.O.D. Fellas.  They was having some type of party, and needed a DD. Told Big Brother's G22 2 the rescue.....


         As I touched down in None Ya town, the car was waiting.  No driver, it was kinda black and talked like the Knight Rider!!!  The doors opened, "Welcome G22."  "Hey Mr. KRS, tell me the dillyo."  As we drove to the house, he made sure to give me all the info.  As we pulled up, the doors raised up. Mr. Fabo helped me out the Lambo.  Told me a few things b4 we entered the door.  "Oh yea 1 more thing, here's ur key."  Pink Sapphire set in platinum, truly off the hook.  Damn this thing had bling.  "Y thank you, ur F-A-B-O-L-O-U-S!!!!"  He opened the door, I looked around.  My ROC glasses had the light tints, so they stayed on while I scoped the grounds. 

       As I got 2 the Den, every1 was mastering there sounds.  Seems like the cyphers, were the only thing going down.  DJ Premier, was blasting those beatz.  You shoulda heard every one's rhymes.  I felt like a baby with all these lullabies.  The sons of hip hop creators, damn what a sensation.  As we put a drink in the air, the Rev blessed the Cube's and said 2 "unite this nation."  We drank all that was in our cup.  There was the old school, as they came back with, 2 legit 2 quit.  Told the young "now come back with ur hits."  You had the mediators who, were grateful to be on that stage.  Then you had the boring dudes, who still won't get me 2 call there name.  As S-N-P, graced us with a show, they got the standing O.  Mike Epps n Slick Rick, were the comedians 4 the night.  

                              That's when Nikki brought a piece of paper 2 me.  
                                            Meeting in the ladies room @ 1:12.
     
         Looked @ my watch 12:30 now.  I continued 2 peep the Hank n Boi's, they came with a lil swank.  Seems every1 had sum type of diamond on.  Trina came up n said "it's 1:02, let's head 2 the meeting room."  
        As we walked upstairs, went in this room.  Walked 2 the book shelf n entered my 4040 G code.  Then as the book case slid back, my key started blasting like a light beam.  I looked @ Trina said "follow me."  As we loosened up our buttons, a lil swooped out rhino, scooped us up.  Took us 30 minutes 2 get 2 our destination.  We got off the rhino n opened this door.  As we walked in, pole dancers were every where.  Except they were not really there. 

     Soon as we took our seats, the scene changed n all the Boss's came seen.  " Fill us in on all the change."  As I looked around the table, and the screen behind them.  I said this is from all the G's.  Trina handed them all a pair of lips.  "It's sealed with a kiss, so 2 open it requires only your lips.  Once you kiss it, you have 10 minutes 2 gather the legend.  It will self destruct and no record of this meeting will ever be brought up."  We briefed sum more, then Trina handed them the list of hoes.  "U can catch most of them in the digital underground."   Then handed them pens for the Queens in the pin.  I gave a lil more info of what routes 2 go.  Told Trina, "thanks for helping me carry out this mission, but Code 4 we have 2 go."  Looked @ the Boss's "Code 4, Bro needs us back."   As we said goodbye, til the next time.  They told me "Thanks 4 staying put, and most of all not saying a word."  I smiled " Man Hip Hop is my life, I' am the #1 wife."   Lesson 2 u young, I didn't get the key from act'n trife.  

      As the pole dancers reappeared, we gave deuces to Mr. Powers.  The rhino took us back 2 the bedroom door.  We  buttoned up our gear n went back down stairs.  " G22 we were missing you!" As big brother Mr. West greeted me with a hug.  LOL  "Stop playing, I was gone for 5 minutes."  Got all kinds of hugs from all my loves, looked @ the watch 6am damn.  Told Trina and Nikki "It was fun, but haven't spent time with my hun."  "DJ its time 4 club Bedz," as we flew away.

       As I touched down Mr. 40 sent a message :  Mr. G is getting a lil lonely.  Picked up my phone " Call Daddy"

"Baby, been trying 2 reach you, everything cool?"
"Yes daddy, had a few meetings had 2 attend 2.  U kno how I do."  
"Baby what you got on?"
Grin'n "Ahh daddy I promise, it wasn't for fun.  It was a house party."
"Oh okay, soon baby?"
"Sooner then you think daddy?"
" Really your not kidding with my mind?"
" Naw daddy, its all real this time."
"OOO WEE, I can't wait til we seal this deal!!!!"
"I know daddy, just keep rep'n us the way you do, and I'm gonna hold us down the way I do."
 "Okay baby, mwah thanks 4 checking in, I was getting...."
"Don't say it daddy, I got you!  I feel you, this is all true. Thats why ur my only boo."         
"Mwah baby, umm thats y u my only lady."
"Daddy its peak hours, got 2 get sum 350 zzzz, but hit me after ur show.  Mwah always n 4ever my luv."
"Yes my lady zzz right over 2 me, mwah my love.  Dream of only me." 
"Yes daddy, now get some sleep."

I smiled and rolled over "My 350 is fast huh?" WTF "how'd I get in this dream?"  

                Stayed tuned kitty's, as I show him how I ROC it 2 sleep.... HAAA HAAA HAAA HAAA HAA HAAA HAAA HAAA HAAA LOL LOL damn really baby what you gonna do with some1 like me??? LOL LOL LOL  Candy Sweet Dreams, My Light Beam.  XXX ;O*  Can't wait 2 ummm you...LOL LOL      

     

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So in honor of one of my true soul sister's, this is 4 her.  Yes I've been swamped with letters 2 gore, even had 2 disconnect the phone.  Haven't bothered checking my emails, kinda find hand written more personal.  But this post is 2 remember good times with fun people.  Also 2 let my sis from another miss, know I will never look at her any different no matter the distance.  G 22 had 2 pick up my sis since Thompson Elementary school, Miss Chanelle Valero.  So say hi 2 my Ce Ce, and as she called me her Ace.  LOL We are going back into time, when she had a some what of a good mind.  LOL  Chanelle u'll always be my wind beneath my wings.  LOL LOL U member... LOL  Miss U, tell Leon and Divinity lots of love from there god - mother.  Alright we ready....   Location LV, NV..... Time Dec 1998.... Event BILLBOARD MUSIC AWARDS..... Lets go.

          Sure was cold, feels like back home.  As we got 2 the Board Walk and checked in.  Of course the air lines misplaced our luggage, ain't that a likely story.  So we figured we'd save some energy and turn in.  Woke up the next morning to see the strip covered in snow.  WTF never snows in sin city.  Radio said it was the 1st time in 30 years, damn it was in the 100's a week ago.  Plus neither 1 of us brought heavy type jackets.  As we packed up getting ready 2 check in at the MGM.  Everything was covered in white, what a sight.  We checked in, put our luggage away, then went on the strip 2 play.  

        It was so cold we needed 2 buy jackets, LOL man we from Denver that was plain crazy.  So we found a Foot Locker in Circus Circus, Chanelle being Chanelle started yapping 2 the sales clerk.  Not only did she get us a discount but somehow a new follower.  He met up with us later, see I didn't drink but she loves her liquor.  We explored the strip, went on galaxy trips and high moving rides.  

        He ended up coming back 2 the room that night.  Next day was BBMA, we got ready looking fly as can be.  I always let her do my make-up, she had a talent 4 it.  Any how we got downstairs, people everywhere.  As we found our assigned seats, Chanelle decided she didn't like em, so she wondered and found us different 1's instead.  

    

   Sure enuff we was on the side of the stage.  All a sudden, a bunch of dudes came down in leather jackets.  It read something in white on the back, but we weren't infatuated.  Plus we didn't listen 2 rap.  Man looking back at the pictures, we was sitting behind innovators.  Jay-Z, M. Bleek and Dash, couple other people but hell how do u explain that 2 yourself????  Anyhow it was an incredible show, lots of real talent, something sum award shows lack these days.  After the show, we walked down 2 the floor.  On the side Mr. Magic Johnson, as we walked up told Chanelle, mom's been dying 2 meet him!!!  So as we were asking him for an autograph, some guy walks to the security 2 our side and tells her 2 ask us 2 leave...... Damn u Jay Z, another missed opportunity!!!!  Told u I didn't know who this fool was, but damn he was beginning 2 bug.  Chanelle and I was like WTF as we walked away.  Only thing we could think of was, cos he wasn't the 1 we wanted an autograph from.   Damn groupies ruin it for everybody!!!!!  As we got 2 the stairs ran into sum guys, who were 6ft tall.  LOL  Got the autograph and continued on our path.  As we got 2 the lobby, all performers were there.  That's when we seen this happening.  Now Mr. Cee Lo this is why you lost all RESPECT from me.  Cee Lo was sr8 yelling at some female, sr8 making a scene.  Literally belittling her telling her she was a bitch and hoe, just loud going off.  Yea see I have a memory, and that really cost you.  So F.U. that she's with another dude, you as a person still got stuff 2 prove!!!!!!!!!   Anyhow as we was standing in the lobby, big perm, big worm said hi as he was walking with somebody.  The group Next, B. McKnight, and every1 else was being real nice n polite.  As we walked towards Studio 54, I seen Mack 10 and for my step pops had 2 go say hi.  His cousin Derrick was standing right there, asked if I wanted a graph n wanted 2 kick it.  So I got a pic plus graph of him n his crew.  Then Derrick took me 2 Wolf Gang Puck 4 sum pizza.  Chanelle was off with sum dude gambling, member free drinks but she was only 19.  As she finally caught up with me, she was with dude from Foot Locker... smh man oh man this women.  It was getting late and we had a flight 2 catch the next day, so Derrick offered 2 walk us 2 the elevator.  As we got there Goodie Mob was standing there, Derrick took a picture and thats where we said bye.  

       LOL  Okay so since then Mr. Carter has done plenty in making that day up.  4 those that don't know, I was blessed to get a scholarship from his foundation 2 help with school.  Plus what can I say, I became addicted to the R O C when he changed his views on woman. Plus B is like a sis 2 me, can't share the same bday and not like a person.  Come on ur crazy, 2 not give both them credit. Look at all they introduced 2 us, plus what they did for hip hop. Loyalty for them, runs soul deep.  As far as Cee Lo, while it's not cos of money ur honey probably left you!!!!  She probably got tired of how u treated her, and found some1 who upgr8's her.  I'm not sure you know how to treat a lady, so it's no wonder why you cry.  Let this be a lesson, even when u think the po po's r not watching.... Trust me, were always there.  

      Chanelle loved spending time with you, thanks 4 letting us rewind the time.  You know how I do, gotta go, gotta go, G22's got work 2 do.  Bedz play that funky music please.