This is 2 my ladies, B help with this one.... Me, Myself and I is all I have in the end.... we remember the song ladies? I do more then ever right now. See I'm gonna get a few things off my chest cos frankly I'm tired of being treated like I'm nobody. God please 4give me but I need 2 vent, and I already told u, ur lil angel is threw. It's amazing how you think some1 is true or shit that ur family might actually love you. Starting 2 see ain't none of it tru. Being the oldest and growing up in a Latina family while for some strange reason the boys are always catered 2. They say you shall honor ur mother and father but when ur family treats you like an outcast and a burden y bother? I had it out with my mom 2day, see since she lost her house it's kinda funny how she never had room for my stuff in storage. It's funny how her and my brother r best friends and not worried where I've been laying my head. It's funny how Im supposed 2 just be there yet they wish I was never here. I remember numerous times my mom saying 2 not only me but my bff's moms and sisters, that she wish she never had me. I remember her picking water over me, when step pops thought it would be cool 2 try and show me porno's while touching himself well gramma n her were at work. Yet months wondering what was wrong with me and finally telling school, she took his side went and moved her n my brother 2 greely. Didn't care that I stayed with gramma or the shit I was going threw. Thanks god 4 seeing me threw and letting nothing really bad happen 2 me. It's funny how she wish she never had me, yet had it not been 4 me who woulda raised her son? Helped her threw every trail she's gone threw, shit been the only 1 she could cry 2???? Lord Im done, I did what u asked and now I'm just turning mad. I'm gonna post this one project that u asked, but god I need u 2 follow thru and get me outta here cos T.I. don't live in this city. Been awhile since I've been IDK living 4 me. Dude I thought was true, he starting 2 seem like the rest and while that chapters about 2 be thru. 4 real lord I need something cos my niece is the only one who makes me smile, I really don't know what you want me 2 do. I'm losing my cool. I thought dude was true lord or woulda saved more so I could be ghost and not have to feel this pain no more. Its so normal 2 cry Im starting 2 lose focus of my worth. I thought some1 was holding me down damn I shoulda stood my feet on solid ground. Lord I really really need answers now. Don't wanna spend money on some1 else's gps, just in case I need 2 jet. Im done fighting lord, thought I was listening and following you but damn now it seems Ive been lead a stray. I'm done being a burden lord please please say I never have 2 cry again. Im done hurting and arguing and not smiling 4give me but I want 2 start making me happy again. I've gone far 2 long with no vaca and without a fucking touch from another body, lord I'm at my prime and theres not a fucking body who wont fuck this body. I know I'm getting personal and really need 2 just stfu and do the post u told me 2 do and suck everything up like I normally do, but lord 4 real Im threw. Whats the use being true when aint nobody else following thru, do u 4get I'm only human 2. This shit hurts and I'm ready 2 call it a rap. Im living below my means, everybody thinks I'm fucking crazy Im done lord wtf more do u want me 2 give? Maybe this time people will actually miss me cos with no phone cant nobody reach me. Shit at least I kno where ever I end up, you got me.