10/21/2010

angels

I haven't done 1 of these in a minute but my heart was calling and I had 2 sing it.

                                                 4gotten 

I musta fell asleep one day, musta ran away and never said goodbye.  See I came back 2 a home that  became a house.  Never knew such pain, never knew such misery.  Looked in the eyes of my family, and me I could not see.  I tried 2 ask when it got this way... no response.  I yelled how'd u lose sight of me... still nothing.  I never knew such selfishness, hate, lack of faith.  Never knew there was never no love.  I cried, I wept, wondered where all my believers went.  No answer.  I went 2 god, he said child ur not the 1 whose wrong.  I still couldn't understand, I wanted 2 be part of my fam.  Nope 2 them I was a bother and just part of a problem.  I went 2 god once more... y oh y would u close ur door?  He said child ur still not wrong.  Then sent me along my way.  I told my G11 take me 2 marz so I feel no more pain.  Told Luda, can u come drink with a sister?  As he brought the M&Ms, with the glass of conjure.  Told me A we gonna get sr8, pop in this tape.  As we started roc'n 2, take this world and drop it on ur fuck'n head.  Wayne n Em was making marz feel like home.  Leo, Luda and I started talking when times were different and people once believed.  Told Luda, damn went off 2 college so my mama would never have 2 work again.  Remind me when did my day come and I past????  Cos people still living like I was the one who passed.  Luda said yea, tell me are u heaven sent or hell bent?  Had 2 look at him and ask myself, u kno I get that a lot lately.... but sir let's turn it around whose the one thats really in hell?  Right then he laughed, I said Luda lets talk 2 the rest of the 4gotten and play a game.  Kinda like the movie trading places.  See u have doubts on who can be saved, so point em out and my K9 and me will go fly these skies.  He didn't just point them out, he gave me a list that covered the world.  Said oh u have 3 years, still want this bet????   SHM  told him damn Adam always told me 2 keep my mouth shut smh damn insert foot again, but never once went back on my word.  So saving became part of this lil red ridding hood.  We finished our glasses of Conjure and he took me back 2 earth.  Told me u have fallen angels, just ask and they'll help u.  Damn this was gonna be a tuff assignment, didn't even know where 2 start @.  Seemed complete strangers believed more then family, so I went 2 all my 2nd families 1st.  A year gone, where do I go 2 now?  I asked the lord can I get a voice, The Boss who never left me, came 2 sound.  I ate the pieces and went in 2 save my family... dang one more year.  Looked up k where 2 now.  The Boss and Luda was so impressed with my progress, they gave me all their friends.  Shit that 1 was harder then it sounds, cos in the mean while had 2 convince them what about my moms and brother.  They gave me help with that 1, til I started seeing truth of their evil.  Started getting deeper with roots and man was this hard 2 up root.  Had it comin from people they trusted, people who said they loved them.  Its funny how when an outsider see's things that are negative.... they become the bad kid.  HUMMMM  while I can only show them so much and when u hang with people who have no faith or fail 2 believe.... while u also lose UR luck.  I guess a lot of us like 2 dismiss the fact that were always warned.  R gut feeling is more sensitive 4 a reason and shows u the unknown.  See not 2 bash on any sign, but I have yet 2 see a Gemini b true.  Ur always gonna deal with there twins, and while I've grew up with a few and been reintroduced 2 more then a hand ful... let me tell u.  I have yet 2 see 1 be true.  Ur always gonna deal with the 2 side twins remember.  The lack of manners wow no thank yous or I missed u.  They always see things as half empty, want people 2 feel sorry.  Plus I haven't met a female gem that is true 2 their word or  independent.  Yea they r gold diggers and will leave u when ur chips r down.  Now if u a gem and this aint u, then brush this off.  But if u getting upset its probably cos ur lazy ass is outta shape.  See I've seen true ladies bust there ass and take care of home, kids and MAN.  Then I look at some who work when they want, have the nerve 2 complain when he gets home, not spend QT with the kids, plus never cook dinner or say thank you, or ask how his day went.  But sr8 oh me this me that me me me me ...... damn 4 real good men deserve so much better.  I keep telling my niece u will never be a girl, U will be a real woman like ur aunty.  Ohhh I just went off 4give me.  Now where was I????    Guess the moral of the story is people what ever u do, never, never, never teach ur children 2 not believe.  Let them believe in it all.... mostly  GOD, ANGELS, and anything their lil hearts desire.  Cos it's a sad day when an Angel comes ur way, and ur so filled with negative, 2 feel there wing pick u up and take u away back 2 faith.  Not only do u make them cry, but when u do realize u had an Angel by ur side or in ur home.......  Ur gonna be the one who never stops feeling the pain.  So 4 ur sake I hope ur good, and when god grants u all ur wishes, I hope u repent right then.  I hope u never lose faith or stop believing cos Angels could be ur last hope.  After that we hand u 2 the Luda and hope u don't get eaten 4 suppa.  Now I know that was a lil scattered, but it was meant 4 the 1 true soul 2 understand.  

             U now been touched by an ANGEL!!!!!!