I'm going to do something different and add one of my first love's a poem this is going to be freestyle but I'm going to call it
A Birthday Wish !!!!!
They say 27 is your golden year, yet how can an odd number be golden? If 27 is golden then do you move up to platinum when you hit 28? When you hit the age of frustration do they have a saying for that too? I've noticed my history is repeating itself and I feel like I'm 18 all over again.... (to young for the world yet, to responsible to act a fool). If you get to the point of where you out grow what you used to love is that always held against you? Or do you finally enter a door where everyone is on the same page (GET MONEY)???!!!! My 28 years have not been easy nor have they always been as disciplined as I would have liked, but they have been FUN and full of LIFE!!! They've been something that no one else can say they have had nor done. I've tasted everything once and trust me if I liked it I was right there getting seconds. How are you supposed to know how good it taste if you to scared to embrace it??? God has walked with me and often carried me. He instilled in me the faith I have and yet has taken me threw test physically impossible to pass by human standards alone. I've never had a real man in my life and know that causes a lot of mistrust I have for "men". A girl who grew into a woman from a single home, while raising her brother and graduating not only high school but college. I had to see the cheating and misery a step pops brought my mom, had to see the mind games "men" play and why woman can't make it on there salary alone. Financial dependence is not love and trust me the kids feel and see it more then you think! I don't blame anybody I understand it but if it's financial dependence come clean don't say it's out of love!!! Love is pure, unconditional and has no strings attached love is just love. Some are lucky and hold out to find the one that they can be balanced with for the rest of there life's. Some settle before there time and soon become miserable with the one that maybe never brought that smile or twinkle. Some become a prisoner of lust and end up doing life!!! But either way you look at it we are all on a search for L-O-V-E. To find the one to build that foundation with, to come home and have a smile waiting for you. To build you up when you are down, someone to become your best friend and number one fan... I guess in my life I have done everything I've wanted to do plus so much more.... I've seen things that have been amazing and lived threw times that only made me this much stronger. Stronger to L-O-V-E, hold, touch, live, taste experience the things I might have brushed off because of FEAR. Love is light and with that you can be guided threw the darkest of times, but Fear is dark and nothing is right in the dark it's just a way of hiding pain!!! I guess my Bday wish is that everyone get right by the light and stop fearing what they have hidden in the dark!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May love guide you and be your light away from fear!!!!
Peace and Love MWAH